Saturday, October 31, 2009

Karma Police

I know, i know i disappeared again. And i always say i'll come back and start posting more.
Now i actually mean it.

Well, tons have been going on in my life.
I lost a few friends, and i gained a few. And about the losses i'm not so sad about. I know i
should be but... I'm not. It was one of those friends who treat you like crap and don't really
care if you're there or not but care if you're not friends with them. A couple of those friends i

I also tried out for cheerleading. Yes, people think cheerleaders are sluts, annoying, and
everything else you can think of. But most aren't. Its sad about those girl and how they feel
when people make fun of them because they enjoy what they do. They love cheerleading and
get made fun of for it. How right is that? No body should be made fun of just because they
love doing something. Its just not cool. They like doing it, so what?

Also, i got a dailybooth. And its
If you have one, tell me or whatever.

"But we're faster and never scared."

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Ive been lacking posts

Sorry, my computer broke, currently getting fixed at this moment in time.

I Wish he waS My best friend, people need to stop being so serious in life and realize that sometimes you just have to put all seriousness away and have fun once in a while.
Life is too short for everyone to be serious. This is why me and Sarah try to make everyone we see who looks sad or is just standing there sing and dance with us. Not joking, we do this every day. Lunch and after school is the best time to do it. Not many people will do it. Even if it does mean we will embarrass ourselves we still do it.
I camE To the point where i dont really care what anyone thinks of me, im me, and im not going to change for anyone. If people dont like who i am, then finE they dont have to be around me oR Hang around me.
Our big KW that we remake every year and burn every year didn:t burn very well this year.
It was about
20 degrees outside,
extremely cold, to cold for me. Thats for sure.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

The best part of believe is the lie..

Sorry for the lack of posts. I've been meaning to get on here and post but i get distracted with random things. But i promise i will post way more. I'll try to every day or every other day.

I got my hair dyed and cut. Wanted it platinum blonde, and dyed all over. And thats not what she did. She did highlights again. Every time i go in she does highlights and nothing more. So i think I'm going to go to a different hair dresser.

School has been in session for about 6-7 weeks now. And tons of people have changed. A couple days ago one of my old friends came up to me and started having a conversation about how she saved her money up to go and buy alcohol after school and she needs to go smoke, and i asked her was it 'cause her new friend smoke and drink, she replied yes. I told her i didn't care about her drinking or smoking so if she wants to talk about something interesting to come back and talk to me.

Being a follower never gets you anywhere in life. People don't decide your future you do, so why follow? Go ahead, be yourself. Being someone else doesn't help anything, it just makes two people one. When you begin to follow people, they start making decisions for you. It doesn't matter if the decisions are good or bad, they just want to look better. No matter how good or bad of a friend they are, they always want to look better than there 'followers'. I don't like people like that. Thinking there superior to everyone just 'cause.

Everyone is equal. No one is better than anyone else.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Pick the poison and pour yourself a glass.

I'm sorry i haven't been posting lately. I've been busy for the most part.

What is high school like for me?
Its alright i guess. Passing periods i always get smashed by all the older kids. Thats not always joyful let me tell you that. In fashion design we made "Hattii Dolls" or something like that, they looked like voodoo dolls. I kid you not. I just wish my best friend went to my school. Kinda depressing. In drama i have to act out a childerens book. I was going to do "Are you my mother?" But i think "Green Eggs and ham" will be much easier to act.

A couple days ago my dog would not leave the backyard. We had no idea what so ever why. And one morning before school started i decided to see what was so interesting, it was a turtle. And there is no wild turtles where i live. So i have no idea how he/she got back there. I decided to name it Murtle the Turtle. At first i asked my dad if we could keep him he said no. A day later we found the turtle again. Once again i asked if we could keep it. My dad finally gave in. So right now he/she is in a baby pool with dirt water salad and tree branches. We couldn't find a turtle tank or anything so we have to go look for that this weekend. But i guess the pool will work find for now.

I also got my hair cut. I'm not sure if i like it, Tuesday i'm going to go get it dyed so i'll probably like it better then. Okay, gotta go do homework. My sophomore year isn't turning out the way i would like it too...

Monday, August 17, 2009


Sorry i have been ignoring you lately. School started today and i have been super busy. I've been in Montana for the past week with my family school shopping. Not fun. Today was my first day of my sophomore year. Oh and may i add that it was a new school. I got lost a couple times, but i found my way. None of my friends are in my classes, they're all in different classes together. But i did change my classes so I'm not in freshman math. But then they didn't even give me a math class, maybe i should check up on that. But for now im fine going to Fashion Desigen to Biology to lunch (which by changing my math class i got lunch with Sarah.) to Drama-Ind Study to PE.
I haven't made any new friends yet, maybe i should so i'm not stuck not knowing anyone. But thats just my luck.

Today I found out the dates for Cobra Starship to go on tour. My mom said i could go for my birthday present 'cause my brother got a $500 AMP for his guitar for his birthday. I also got 'Hot Mess' on Tuesday. At first i was a little unsure about it but it grew on me. Now i completely love it. I also joined 'Cobra Crew' which came free with the CD. So now i have chances to meet them.

I have to go get ready for tomorrow. But it seems that I keep procrastinating. I need to straighten my hair so its not a afro tomorrow morning.

"The reflection in the mirror is her only friend..."

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Nothing but the local Dj.

This summer has been a drag i decided. I have done completely nothing but i guess thats alright with me. Don't you get a summer break to rest right? So i guess i've been doing that. I went to the mountains again today, My eyes always itch so bad when I'm up there, but its so pretty and peaceful.

I have 15 more days of summer left. I just want to get school over with. I already have my freshman year done (which people say is the worst year?) so i don't have to worry about being the new kid. I always hated being the new kid. I feel bad for all the kids who come and don't know anyone, i try to be there friends. But sometimes it doesn't work, they always want to hang out with the 'cool' kids who go out every friday night with a bunch of friends and get drunk. I have my friends, i may not have many but i have some and they've been there for me every time.

I decided that I want to just start doing whats good for me and not want everyone else wants me too do. I'm tired of it. I'm going to keep moving on with my life no matter what. Life doesn't stop for anyone. There might be some bumps in the road but you can always fix those. Don't start living your life when your 40, start living it now. You can never go back in time and take it all back. Don't regret anything you do. Someone asked me a couple days ago "If you can go back in time would you change anything?" My answer was no. They seemed suprised at my answer and asked me why? I responded "I wouldn't be who i am or be where i am right now if i changed what i did in the past. No regrets. The past is the past and its over with, you have to look into the future and worry more about that then what already happened." I was proud of my answer. Learn from your mistakes other than sitting there and regreting them.
You can't change the past, you can only change the future.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Losin' it.

This music video is hilarious.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Stop there and let me correct it.

I haven't blogged in a while, sorry! I'v been quite busy, well sorta. So heres how my last week went:
Monday: Went to a concert thing with Adriana and Alex and slept over at their house. I found a new band that i like. The name of them is Stellar Kart, they're really good, well i thought they were. Im seeing them again in 11 days in Denver.
Tuesday: Woke up, went home, cleaned my room. Very exciting day i must say. It seems that i clean my room every day 'cause it bugs me when its messy.
Wensday: Went swimming, cleaned my room. Once again very exciting!
Thursday: Went on a hike with my grandma. Which what those pictures are of, the mountains were so pretty. We hiked for 4 hours uphill with like 1 5 minute break. My grandma is a beast when it comes too hiking.
Friday: Went to the mall with Adri and Alex, saw 'I Love You Beth Cooper'. It was alright, not the best movie not the worst.
Saturday: Went to the mountains too my uncle's cabin. It was in the middle of the mountains with no trail or anything. It was fun, i sat by a creek the whole time, which was extremely peaceful. Sometimes you just have to sit down and do completely nothing. It was nice and quite up there. It was great.
Today Panic!'s new single New Perspective came out today. I really like it, no disappointment with this one. I'm glad Brendon and Spencer has a time to shine. It kinda seems that Ryan always stole the 'spotlight' with his lyrics. And Brendon never got credit for his.
Everyday i hear about people going out and getting drunk and high. Im so tired of it. I hate having to hear about teenagers going out and getting drunk and getting preggo by some guy they don't know and getting a abortion. Its terriably sad. And a couple days ago i found out that my best friend from 8th grade is now doing cocaine. Dissapointment. But i guess i can't make
decisions for anybody.

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it." -Alex Deleon

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


What is normal? I've been thinking about that lately. Is anything normal? I wonder if there's a real definition of normal. People clame they're normal but are they really? If everyone was normal everyone would dress, act, talk, laugh, walk, look the same. Everyone has there own unique look. If everything was 'Normal' wouldn't you think that the world would be boring? Everything would be bland colors: Gray, white, black. Everyone's houses, cars, lawns, dogs would look the same. And would everyone look pretty much the same? We would do all the same things no one would love something more than another person cause it was the 'normal' thing to do. So therefore nothing is normal.
This is what i think about late at night.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Everyone knows theres a party at the end of the world.

Theres one person in this world that i know wont disappoint me. Sarah. She stands by my side no matter what and is a good kid. Dosen't drink, smoke, do drugs, and have sex. And she got me hooked on All Time Low. But i got her hooked on Cobra Starship and Panic at the Disco. So were almost even, Almost. [:
Went to the fair twice this week. Wasn't anything great. Its the same every year nothing too special. Not worth going twice though. But i did go to a 'Side Freak Show' there. I was sick before i went and Sarah had swimmers ear so we went on like 3 rides then went to the freak show 'cause we had nothing better to do. Once again nothing too great. There was a sheep with 5 legs, a cow with 6 legs, the worlds smallest horse (which was a miniture [Sp?] horse nothing special those are every where), a albino turtle, a turtle with two heads, a cow with two noses (And a over bite!), and some animals in jars. Which were gross but i guess real, there was also a baby in a jar! It was kind of messed up... There was a ride that was called 'Starship' it reminds me of Cobra.

All Time Lows new CD 'Nothing Personal' is really good. I enjoy it a lot. "Oh Glory" Panic's new single is amazing. I like it. It sounds a lot like 'A Fever You Can't Sweat Out'. If you haven't heard it and want to its here:

Im excited for the new cd.

And now some random pictures from the fair:

Monday, July 6, 2009

Once again...

I guess you could say today was a bit disappointing. Right when i woke up i found out Ryan and Jon will be leaving Panic at the Disco. Yes, i did shed some tears more than once. But at least the band members are going to be happy. And we can actually see how Brendon and Spencer's lyrics are, and it gives them a chance for us too see how good they can actually be. But when i go to my room i try hard not too look at the huge poster of them hanging up in my room, or the Deluxe additon of Pretty.Odd or Live in Chicago. I also heard Panic is bringing back the ! in the name. Who knows, well see.

It seems the fair is this week. Might go tomorrow, it'll make me happy. And i saw the hangover today, it was good. Really funny. I liked it. It made me happy for the most part. And i learned that creepy people go downtown at night and like to scream at you when your walking. Like when your at a corner and waiting to cross the street everyone will yell "hookers!!". Wow, sure mature there! ha,

Pheoebe keeps hitting me with her tail on my face at this moment. Its getting annoying. See she likes to sit on top of our computer chair and sit there, obviously today she likes to hit my face with her tail and get fur all over. haha.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

I love July.

Its my favorite month. So many things happen, such as the fair. Which is next week, well it started this week but officially opens next week. Also we went to get my new chinchilla last week, i named him Chester. I thought it was a good name for him. He's extremely hyper which is a good thing i think. Well, who knows. I sure don't!

Cobra Starship's video for 'Good Girls Go Bad' came out on monday (Which was Sarah's birthday!) it's pretty good. I can't believe Vicky T and Gabe kiss, i was totally shocked. But i was happy to find out they are having a 'mini tour' and are going to Colorado, which is only 3 hours away, sweet!

I went shopping today and found a AWESOME Beatles "Yellow Submarine" poster. Of corse i had to get it. How many of those will you run into you know? And i got a new outfit for the 4th of July, which is Saturday and Nine Day (The people who sing 'Story of a Girl' for those of you who don't know) are going to be at the 'Fire Work Festivel!" haha. But im pretty excited.

Oh, heres the poster i was talking about:

Yea, its sideways sorry!

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


I guess life is full of disapointment for me. Almost everyone i know has been going out every night, drinking, getting high, and having sex. Disapointment right there. It seems when ever i get my hopes up i turn around and there's disapointment. Maybe i shouldn't get my hopes up anymore then i won't deal with as much disapointment. Eh, probably wont even work.

Today was my last day babysitting. Victory! But i didn't get paid, the guy told me if i wait 'till Tuesday to get paid he would pay me for Monday and Tuesday even though i don't have to work. Stellar. That means on Tuesday i can go buy a week (two week i guess sense now its two weeks long) pass to the fair. Better take advantage of the fair when we have it huh?

Tomorrow i get my new chinchilla. Yay! Not sure what to name him yet, i have a few names in mind. And they are: Oliver, Chester, Sammy, Ringo, Winslow, and i forgot the other one's. Woops. What sounds good to you? I like Chester or Oliver. But who knows what im going to name him.

Depressing week this week i must say. Three people died. But the only person who i knew who he actually was is Michael Jackson. Thats so sad that he died like that. Out of know where, bam! he died. And what really shocked me was that the Media actually posted pictures of him dead. Of corse i didn't look at them. Some sick people are out there huh? It sickens me.

I saw Year One last night, with my mom 'cause everyone was outta town. I liked it a lot. But then again Michael Cera is my favorite actor in the world. My mom obviously like it, she laughed through the whole thing which was kinda emberssing (spelling ha, i don't feel like changing it so SORRY!), everyone kept stairing like its a crime to laugh at a movie.

Thats all i got for now. Rest In Peace Michael Jackson, you will NEVER be forgotten.

Monday, June 22, 2009


This is offiically one of my favorite videos.
Its hilarious, yet creative.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

This is a story of a girl.

Summer life has been a drag. I wake up, get ready, babysit, go home, check e-mail, read. Exciting right? Gah, i wish. And with babysitting i am getting ripped off. Working 7-6 five days a week, two kids for $50 a week. Last week i worked 63 1/2 hours and got paid $50. Thats like, less than a dollar a hour. I haven't hung out with friends 'till the last day of school. But i guess thats no big of a deal, well it is but after dealing with two kids for 9 hours NO THANKS!

Everyone's been acting weird lately. Everyone i talked to this week haven't been happy, they have no emotion when i talk to them. I wonder whats up with that? I always try and stay in a positive mood no matter what but it seems im having a little trouble with that. I always say im going to stay positive or im not going to let anyone get me down, but i just can't stick with that. For some reason its hard for me, i can never stick to what i say.

For the bright side of things i think im getting a new chinchilla next week. That means no babysitting on Friday! Yayyy! ha, but i think i might quit. I feel bad, but for once i need to do something for me. Im so stressed that i don't even wanna do anything anymore, hence all i really do is read. Which isn't a bad thing, i like to read. Speaking of reading i finished 'Impulse' this week, my FAVORITE book so far. Anyways also im getting ripped off. And now that im getting a new pet i need to take wayyyy better care of him. So then i can stay home, take care of my animal, make sure the house looks okay (My mom is offering to pay me more than 50 a week to take care of the house!), and then i can have my summer back. That sounds appealing.

Thats all for today, i need a shower and sleep. After babysitting going to see Year One hopfully! Excited for that one.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Save Me!!

Holy Tornado! Yea, thats a tornado forming and now there is one outside of my town kinda close where i live.
Now i can be scared. Someone save me!!!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009


It doesn't feel like summer at all. Waking up at 7, babysitting till 4 go home, do nothing (well not YET), and watch the rain. We haven't had one day this summer that it hasn't rained. Its usally really nice outside. But i guess not this year huh?

But im glad my brother is a lifegard this summer. Why? 'Cause i get to be around lifegards all day. [: haha. And well...there not too bad looking either. And then again i get into the pool for free now. Thanks for working at a pool! Oh the advantages of having a older sibling.

But tomorrow i have to get up way more earlyer then i usally do. I have to go get my braces tightened. I hate that time of month. Last time i went in they put spacers in my teeth and decided i didn't need them till July and yanked them out. And they also took my chain off (those of you who have had braces or have braces know what a chain is, but some who haven't might, who knows?) and i have two new spaces in my teeth 'cause there was a space in the back of my mouth and it just spaced it out. I think that made sense.

I had enough energy to re-do my blog. Im thinking i like it but im totally not sure yet. Black, white, and red go together well. But on my blog it looks kinda creepy, well maybe not. I sure don't know.

Last night i decided to take a listen to the band The Friday Night Boys. There pretty good, better than i expected. My favorite song from them is Stuttering. Also All Time Low's song Weightless is pretty good. I decided to take a listen of that too. Not a let down from that song, hope there CD is going to be that good. I think this year is going to be a good year for music. Green Day's CD turned out good, Cobra Starship is probably going to be good (from what i've heard already AND there working on the video for 'Good Girls Go Bad', All Time Low should be good, Panic at the Disco well...we don't know yet (working on demo's right now, but from what Pete Wentz have said it should be pretty good). And tons of more CD's but i just don't feel like typing them all. Yea, i guess im sorta lazy but who cares? Its summer!
"Maybe its not my weekend, but its going to be my year."

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Oh Hey!!

I have a shadow tonight, and her name is...Pheobe!
She likes pictures taken, i think. She always sits up like this and just stares at me when i get my phone out to do anything.
P.S Whenever my mom sees me and Pheobe she sings 'Me and My Shadow' Cool mom, cool.

So i guess its back to us.

I've never been so busy durring the summer. And it just started. Who knew 5 year olds could eat so much in one hour. But at least i get paid for watching her. Also i was in the kitchen making her lunch (of course, more food.) And she was playing Wii and all of a sudden i hear "Shit!!!" Uhm..she's 5 and says cuss words. And says balls when she gets mad. And her parents know that she says this stuff.

I really need to re-do my blog. But i've been putting it off 'cause im too lazy. Maybe i'll do it later tonight. But im not sure what to do with it.

So i've been thinking about next year and what should i do besides student councell (uh..yea not how you spell that...) Either dance again or winter cheerleading (basketball). But the thing with dance is that i quit at the studio i was with for about 9 years i believe. And i don't want to go back because all they would care about was getting big trophys and beating the other studios and not about fun, which its what its supposed to be about in the first place. But if i go to a different one everyone from my old studio would hate me, but should i really care?

I don't know, maybe i should try cheerleading or dance again. Its just hard to choose. But life is full of choices. And if one doesn't work out then i could try the other one. I guess.

Well i have nothing else to say. I just need sleep. Waking up early kills me.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

I would lie.

Summer is already better. I don't know how, or why it just is. I got some good new:

1. Im going to Blink 182/Fall Out Boy/Panic at the Disco for sure.

2. While im down in Nebraska for that concert im getting a chinchilla. Stellar.

And for some odd reason I've been saying 'Stellar' a lot lately. I wonder why... I've never really said it before it just happend out of know where, but i guess having different "Sayings" (you could say) every once in a while wont hurt eh?

On the last day of school my P.E teacher drove up in this little red car thing. He looked like a elf, a overly large elf. I guess im going to miss this school, but next year ill be on better adventures, bigger schools, more people, older people, and probably getting lost. I actually get to go to a REAL high school. But right now its summer and i shouldn't be worrying about school. Thats in like mmm 3 months?

I need to start going outside and try to get tan. 'Cause 1.) I have a weird tan line 2.) Im extremely white. But the keyword here is try. I can't get tan if my life depended on it. Well i did get really tan when i went on my cruse for dance. But that was like 1-2 years ago. Oh how time goes by. Its crazy how fast time goes, when i think about it I only have 3 more years of living here then im on my own. Scary.

I guess theres not a lot going on in my life right now. Well and its only the third day of summer and i really haven't done much. And the sad thing is Sarah is leaving for this whole month and wont see her till the 1st of July. Why dose her life have to revolve around her brother? It kinda sucks, but whatever i guess i can't do anything about it.

Btw; i love this video. yea, okay i like Taylor Swift.
P.S I need to do something to my blog, its getting sorta boring.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Summer '09

So far:
Lets see where shall i start? Oh! Alright so i woke up Tuesday (first day of summer) and went to the store for my camp over (i guess you could say...) and came home got ready for it.
Sarah and Siara came over, we had a blast! One of the funnest days of my life. Well...
Untill like 8:45 9:00ish? Ginger (my mom's dog) was barking at Nikko's (chinchilla) cage, so we looked and see what she was barking at right?
Well Nikko was laying on his side breathing REALLY hard, so i freaked out and yelled for my mom to come up stairs and i took him out. Well he felt really cold so we took a heating pad and rapped it around him, while he was getting warm we took him down stairs with us and watched the Rocker. In the middle of the movie he started to twitch 'cause he was trying to stay alive. And right on the dot at 10:00 he stopped breathing. He died.
One of the saddest/funnest day of my life. We don't know why he died, he was only 6 or 7 years old and there supposed to live till there 20.. I woke up and my eyes were all red and swollen.
These two days have been pretty depressing and rainy. First day of summer it rains! Dang weather.
I just hope this summer will be better soon, my dad told me were going down to Denver in a couple weeks to look at a Chinchilla Breeder, he wants me to get a new one. Just so i get happer, 'cause he was my first pet to actually stay alive for more than a month! Ha!.
After that depressing story (Sorry about being depressing!! and sorry for having so many of these: ().) we didn't get to camp, so we had to go inside and do smores. There not as good in the microwave. Who knew? Well i guess i do now.
But summer, will you please get better for me? Just a litte?

R.I.P Nikko.

P.S I miss not being able to see you run on your wheel when i look up from the computer. ha,

P.P.S Maybe im making a big deal out of this, i hope not...

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Maybe were just trying to hard.

Wow, sorry about not posting for forever, i've been busy with Finals. And when im not i forget. I have the worst memory in the world. In about two days, when summer starts, I'll start posting more. I promise. Well..unless im on vacation or something without internet.

Like i said summer is in 1.5 days well for me anyways. I have no plans for this summer. Well besides going to Nebraska (I think, as far as i know.) but i really wanna go to California or Flordia. We might go to Flordia 'cause my Step Brother lives there and i haven't seen him for a while. And i really want to swim with Sharks. I know, most people are scared of them but im not. Did you know that more people die from vending machines then shark attacks? I found that sorta funny. Thanks to Logan i now know that.

Its already 8:30. Oh how time goes by so fast. Sometimes i just hate it. Today just went by way fast. I woke up, ate Pop Tarts, took a shower, got ready, went to the mall, shopped, went home, did laundry, planned for Tuesday, and now i've been working on writing this for about 20 minutes. I get distracted so easy. Mostly by Twitter, or NDP. Or something else happening in my house.
But now i have to hang my clothes up, figure out what to wear tomorrow, and sleep. sound like a pretty good plan to me. Oh and i got my Chinchilla (i really can't spell that), who's name is Nikko, a new wheel and he enjoys chewing on it, but he does run on it. Sorry about the random thing about Nikko, no one really cares haha.
"Each day is a gift and not a given right."
P.S I love living by the mountains, there so pretty. I took that picture when i had to walk home from school. And suprisingly its a good picture from being from a phone.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Do you know whats worth fighting for, if its not worth dying for?

I haven't posted in a while, sorry. I've been so busy with finals and homework its not even funny. I've gotten piled with homework this week and its only Tuesday. 5 more days then im free! Well kinda... This summer is going to be fun as far as i know. Im going to Nebraska for the Blink/PATD/FOB concert. My mom promised me i could go.

Nothing really exciting has been happening. Besides a weird tan line, its below my knee to my toes. Its funny looking, so im going to go sit in my back yard, do my homework, and try to even out my tan. Also i've been twittering like crazy, its a addiction. Well thats all i have for now. Homework, shower, then bed. Sounds good too me.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

I guess we made it.

Got my computer back, now i don't have to buy a new one. Yay, i guess. Now i can just put that money that i was saving for a lap top to my savings for the Blink/Panic/FOB concert. I guess im going to the one in Nebraska. The closest one to my state.

But i found out that it bugs me when people say "OMG!!! I give up on my life!!!." I just think, really? Your 15 i know for a fact that you aren't going to give up quite yet. You have the rest of your life ahead of you, so everyone knows your not giving up except if you killed yourself...thats not a solution to anything! Think your life could be worse, you could be starving, living on the streets, have a deadly disease, or dying and no one could care less about you. Just look at the positive things in life and stop worrying about the past. Its over with, there's no way to change it.

I've been twittering like crazy lately, its addicting. Its kinda hard not to post something completely random that has no point. Thats what makes it fun, well thats what i think. 

I finally played with chalk today, it was pretty fun. Super hot outside but other than that i enjoyed it. But when i came back in my house i was just sitting here on my bed and my window folded down (its one of these weird windows that you can push one thing up, and on thing down. And and you can pull the window part? [not the screen the other one to open it.] out and the wind blew it so hard that it slung open and hit me in the back of the head and i think i have a brain damage, i really hope that story made sense. If it didn't im sorry.

I have 8 days of school left then summer, can't wait. I really need to catch up with sleeping. Speaking of sleep i really need to get some. So many finals this week, i hate how teachers wait till last minute to give us all this homework and projects and finals. It stresses everyone out. But i don't think they know that, or they don't care. It could be both.

"Another piece of a puzzle that doesn't fit, you throw your hands like your so damn sick of it. What are you looking for?"

Sunday, May 17, 2009

One, 21 Gun.

Still no laptop, i think its broken for good. But whatever i guess.... I have some money saved up, so ill invest that in a new laptop. Sounds like a good plan for me. But now, i have to save up money for Blink 182/Panic at the Disco/Fall Out Boy concert this summer. Which i'll be on my way to Ohio for, but im going to one in one of the states were travleing through. The only good thing about that trip...

I got Green Day's CD this weekend, im in love with it. They were amazing on SNL last night. Kinda wanna see them in concert too. Maybe im not sure, i'll have to travel to Denver 'cause i like in nowhere land where no one come too.

10 Days of school, now im really counting. I can't wait till summer is here, i'll be free to do what i want, well almost. But then i have to deal with all this "you wanna party tonight?" crap. People already know my answer, its no. I guess imma "Goody Good" but thats fine with me, id rather have fun and actually remember what i did and i can control myself while doing so.

Thats all i have for now. Oh and today? I ran around my back yard taking pictures of trees and such, the picture above is one. I found out that being by myself is one of the greatest things ever. Call it weird but, thats what i think.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


Sorry no picture today. My laptop broke, and it has ALL my pictures on it and on this computer i only have really extremely old pictures from beggining of summer last year. So you probably don't wanna see that ha.

Like i said my computer broke today. It wont even turn on. I have the worst luck in the world, no joke. I almost killed myself in wood shop a couple days ago. It pretty much sucked. So im going to take my computer in to the tech lady at school, i hope she knows whats wrong with it.

Can't wait till summer. 13 and a half more days left. Thank god!!! Anybody have any plans for this summer? Im going to Ohio. Not really looking forward too it. But i get to see my brother that i haven't seen for like 11 years. I think he hates me, but whatever. And i want to go to tons of concerts, im saving my money up. I really wished i could of see Cobra Starship but i couldn't go, school day. But i got to skip school for Panic? Weird but i like panic better ha. Maybe Cobra will go on tour again after this one cause of their new album.

Speaking of new albums, lots are coming out this year. Green day (On friday!!!), Cobra Starship, Panic at the Disco, Black Eyed Peas, Incubus, and tons more i can't remember at the time haha. Anybody excited for any albums? I am three of the 5 i named. ha.

Well i need to take a shower and get sleep. I couldn't sleep lastnight, it sucked.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Wake me up when September ends.

s amazing how some people can change just like that. These pictures were from the middle of the year, when everything was going great. Then both of them got into the whole drinking stuff. At first i was all "Okay, i can still be friends with them untill they pressure me into drinking which hopefully will NOT happe
n." Things went good for a while then they just became different people who i didn't know, they went out and drank, had sex. I drew the line there. 
People aren't supposed to be having sex at 14-15 or drinking, or smoking. These things just disgust me right now. I promised myself that i will not get like them, or do any of these things until i can. Its just disappointing.

Last night i went to a surprise birthday party. It was okay i guess. I had a little bit of fun but not a whole lot, we pretty much sat there and did nothing. I left after one of my good friends did. I was bored ha. I had more fun laying in bed watching movies with Phoebe (who is my cat btw;). Ever sense we got a new puppy my mom doesn't really pay attention to phoebe 'cause Ginger will attack her, no fun. So she follows me everywhe
re and sleeps with me. I now get more company. 

Everyone's birthdays were today, Mothers Day. My mom's
 best friends, Jordan, and Sarah's sisters. Well i guess its not EVERYONES but a lot of people's. Today was a relaxing day, kinda.... My dad made me clean out the garage with him, i didn't. I got distracted trying to skateboard until i fell on my face, so i played with the chalk. Yea, i still like to play with chalk, so what? Everyone has a little kid still in them.
 There's nothing wrong with that. That little kid in us is what makes us live our lives more full out then if everything was strictly business. That little kid is the one who says "I dare you too, NO! I double dog dare you!!" to your friends. Its that little kid in all of us that makes things fun. I could be wrong, whatever. Thats what i think.

So it seems that whenever i get mad or stressed inste
ad of being like a lot of people and get all mean and yell at everyone, i take a walk. By myself. I have no problem with doing so, it gives me time to cool off and think about everything. Plus i get exercise. Win win situation there.
 "Don't waste your life trying to get back what was taken away."

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Keep it simple now.

Okay, okay i lied. I didn't post EVERYDAY but i will post probably not like everyday but i will haha. But anyways nothing really exciting has been happening in my life. 

But i did go to my new school yesterday, the whole 9th grade at my school is moving and most of us went to KW. And so we have classes and there called TROY classes and its one day a week and we just sit there and talk basically. And its alphabetical order and i have no friends in my class. I know a total of two people in that class; Tyson and Tyler. And i don't even talk to them, great ha. But there is this one kid and he has a mustache and greasy hair. He kinda creeped me out.  So i guess i have to step out of my comfort zone and make new friends. I mean i can be REALLY shy at first, like i wont talk or anything. But once i get to know someone i get to not become shy. And sometimes im not shy at all. I can't wait till im done with High School. 

This picture above was probably one of the funnest nights ever. Who really knew running down my street singing "Paper Planes" and kicking rocks could be so fun? It was creepy though, cause it was like 10 at night and weird things kept happening, like this one guy on a bike not a motercycle a bike, had this weird light thing that blinked and we thought it was a alien so i hid in the back of my dad's truck while Sarah kid behind the trash can. Then this red jeep passed by over 5 times on my street, i mean i don't live in a creepy area. Its probably one of the safest areas in town, but it was freaky. Lots of fun things happened that night...

I have to read for English. To Kill A Mocking Bird. Its alright i guess, i can't get into it. Sp im not interested in it. But once im done with this book i have 9 more books to read then i can start a new list. I guess im a nerd but thats okay. I like to read, so what. Books rule your world.

Sleep sounds good now, good thing its almost Friday.

P.S I got a new phone, i love it.

"You can't be missed if you were never gone..."

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

My blog goal.

    My blog goal is to post a least one picture a day. Wether its of my favorite band, guitar player, shoe, my favorite picture, photography. Any thing! Just random stuff. And to post a picture that i took throughout my day. And sometimes i will post a video. I decided i wanted to do this cause i feel like i don't post any pictures. So starting today i will be!

P.S Yea i told you ~Random Stuff. So here you go. Enjoy kids.

Sunday, May 3, 2009


Was amazing, even though i look HORRIABLE in every single picture we took, but whatever. It turned out better than we thought.
When we showed up, no one was dancing so us 5 girls got up and danced. It was just us 5 for about 30 minutes, yea we felt stupid but we got people to dance. 
Then i found out Adri is not one of my real friends, she tells me im one of her "Best Friends" but when i go up to her she walks away cause she's with a guy. Also one of her other "Best Friends" who is my best friend walks up too her and walks away. I guess her true colors showed.

All in all unforgettable night.

Btw; first picture: Me and my best friend waiting for my mom to get out of the store.
Second picure: Our group, Chrissy was the only one with a date. IGNORE MY FACE!! hahahaha.

Thursday, April 30, 2009


Today has been horrible. Probably one of the worst day's ever. Im done with everything, everyone. 
Im not going to say "Im so sick of this town and the people in it." The truth is, its not going to get any better. I hate saying that but its true. Maybe it is the people in it, maybe its just me. I feel like i can't do anything right anymore. I always seem to screw up somehow. This weekend is supposed  to be fun, but with all of this going on its going to be a living hell. 
Sometimes i just feel like i want to run and never look back. That sounds pretty good to me right now. Im trying not to give up, but its so hard. I need to think, just sit down and stop. And just think. 

"No matter how bitter this gets between all of this, just remember they're still our friends, and this is still our home."

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Stop making plans, start making sense.

This is my car. A '61 Chevey Biscayne. My first car. Im super excited, but i don't get it until November or December. But i can't drive 'till December. 8 more months. haha. We just have to put a down payment (i guess thats what its called.) and its mine. Which i am doing after school tomorrow. 

Anyways other than my car Im freaking out about formal. I really shouldn't be but i am. My dress still hasn't came back in again after a month, i don't have shoes, if my dress doesn't come by Thursday i have to get another one here in town which really sucks. And i don't know how to tell someone that i don't wanna be in her group for formal. Its just so hard. No fun at all.

Last night was super fun, i went to this thing called the 'Sweet water' it was hilarious. But it started to snow as usual. And it ruined my life haha. Kidding. But i hate snow, stupid Wyoming. It sucks here, never come. Seriously. But then when me and Adri woke up at like 5 in the morning at her sisters house the light in the next room was on and her pillow was gone and we were the only one's home. It was freaky. But really funny. 

Okay im running out of things to say. 

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Go on.

Sorry, i said i promised i would post like yesterday i think? But i kinda forgot...Sorry 'bout that one kids. 

Well i found a car that i want, and we just have to put some money on it next week and its mine. Its a '61 Chevey Biscayne (I think thats how you spell it..) Well its light blue with blue seats and stuff, its real cute. haha. Even though i can't really drive 'till December my mom still wants too get it for me. Im helping pay for some of it, but only 1,000. 'Cause thats all i have saved up for a car..I'll post a picture when i see it next. I wont get it for a while though, its getting fixed.

Yesterday i went to the mall to find a pair of shoes for formal, i had some luck but didn't get any yet. 'Cause my dress hasn't came back in yet, we sent it in too get a smaller size and it sill hasn't came so if it doesn't come by Thursday i have to get another dress. Great. Thats all i need right now, im so stressed out. About everything. I need to just stop for a second and tell myself that everything is going to be alright. But formal is next saturday. thats just granddd.

I miss the Bahamas, how it was sooo warm. I went there for a week last year, i wanna go back! Im tired of the cold, it snowed again last night. It was like in the 80's then went down to 40 and snowy. Bummer, but it should melt today hopefully. So heres a picture that i took when i was on a boat, just to remind myself how wonderful that week was hahaha. 

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Detox just to Retox..

Wow, i haven't posted for a while. Sorry. I've been busy but not busy at the same time. I know, it makes no sense. But either do i so yeahh. And i've been stressed out about everything. Formal is next weekend and the damn place wont give me my dress back. You see, i needed to get it fixed cause it was too big and we sent it in about a month ago and they said "It will be back in two weeks." But its been a month. And im confused about groups so im just going to go with my best friend. Its going to funner that way. Sense the group i was supposed to go with failed to give me any info about that night im out of the group. Cool..

We got a new girl in school today, i forgot her name. I feel bad that i did, but i forget things all the time so whats new? But i can tell you what is new, i found a car. Its a '61 Chevy Biscayne. The guy who is selling it too us is fixing it up, putting new parts to it, and putting new seats and stuff in it. Im excited. Even though i won't be able to drive till December. But thats okay haha.

I don't have much to say today, i just have a lot going through my head right now. I have to think. But i don't know what's the right thing to do or whats the wrong. This is hard.
More tomorrow, i promise. 

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Today is the day..

Starting today im going to start living my life. Starting today im not going to let anyone get to me. Starting today im going to not let fear get in the way of anything. Starting today im going to do things for me and trying not to make everyone in my life happy. Starting today im going to live with no regrets.

I've let people walk all over me for too long. Take advantage of me. Im stopping that today. Im going to speak my mind and what i think. I don't care if it pleases anybody as long as i feel good about myself then Im happy. Im not trying to be selfish, i just haven't done anything good for myself and i just try to make everyone else happy and seemed that i forgot about myself. 

This is my promise to myself. Im not going to break it. This is something that will happen everyday for the rest of my life...

Monday, April 13, 2009

This is interesting...

What should i think of this? Ha.

P.s (i changed my name haha.)

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Imagine THAT.

I haven't posted in a while. I just can't figure out what to say anymore. I live a boring life ha. Just tons of drama lately. Its stupid. Summer can't come fast enough. Well besides the fact that in July my Grandma who HATES me (like seriously she loves my brother but hates the living guts out of me, don't ask why. I have no idea) is coming down with my Grandpa. Which im not looking forward too. For like a week then we have to go to South Dakota with them. So i can only go to the fair for like two days then miss the rest. COOL. But i did get a A on my speech. I was so nervous to present it. But obviously i said "Um" too much. But oh well. I felt like a idiot after i was done. 

Anyways this weekend sucked. Well i guess Friday was pretty good. Played RockBand all night. It was grand. I tried to sing "The Middle" by Jimmy Eat World. It worked out mighty fine...i think. ha. Meagan did better than i did. She sung "Beat It." it was funny ha. We woke up her parents like 5 times. But i guess when you rock out you can't really contain yourself. haha. 

Oh yeah btw; HAPPY EASTER! woopp. My easter was pretty swell. The "Easter Bunny" got me 5 books (yeahh i know, imma nerd. I read.), tons of candy, and a new cell phone (that i will get later this week.). haha. How was everyones easter? and did the easter bunny bring you anything? lol.

P.s Happy Birthday Brendon!!! :D It seems you had a nifty birthday today. 

P.p.s My new favorite words are: Nifty, swell, yonder, grand. 

EDIT: I changed the name of my blog, do you like this name or the other onee?

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Take a chance.

I've been super busy the past couple of days. I have no life anymore. Between trying to finish my Speech (not even CLOSE to being done with, reading my outside book (but i read alot so its not that bad), and trying to get enough exercise cause with dance apparently im not. Even know i dance my butt of every day wow. That is the reason im not posting as much as i used too. So sorry. But i did go and see Adventureland. I thought it was cheesy. I didn't like it. I mean there was some funny parts but other than that i didn't like it...

I need sleep i don't get enough anymore, but i only have 6 weeks of school left so its okay! haha. 6 more weeks and drama is all done. Im so tired of girls. I would rather hang out with guys, which is actually really fun. They don't worry about what people think of them or who's dating who. Its great haha. 

Im really liking the White Tie Affair lately. There pretty good. At first i hated them but now im starting to like them a lot. I guess thats what happened with my favorite band now... haha. Speaking of music, i've been listening to The Beatles all day. Who can't beat the oldies eh? Ahh the classics. There amazing. [:

Thats all i got for now...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Im not complaining that its raining.

This week has just been crazy. By crazy i mean; Drama filled. It seems that it never stops, that people do it for enjoyment or just to watch the other person fall and fail. Then laugh about it. Im tired of it all; all the crap talking, all the mocking, all the making fun of everyone, EVERYTHING! 

Everyone just needs to look in the mirror and say "What am i doing? Am i really happy of what i've become?" Im not sure if that made sense but it did to me. I just wish everyone would actually find out who they really are and what it feels like to be made fun of or get mocked. And i know for a fact that High School is worse than Junior High was. In junior high it was "Oh you have the same shirt as me i wanna beat you up!" and now its on for about anything and everything. Thats all im going to say with this rant, i can go on and on but i don't want to.

Anyways formal is in exactly one month...Still no date. I think me and Sarah decided we were just going to go together instead of dates. Its going to be more fun. Also i don't have to slow dance, thank god. In other news my science teacher hit me with a marshmallow today. Through a marshmallow gun, it made a bruise. It doesn't sound like it was too bad but you could hear it from all the way across the room, it hurt. Im super tired, i need sleep. But i also need to work on my speech, but i have a week to do that so i'll do it this weekend or something. But not wait till last minute, i've done that its no fun. Thats all i have for now...

Sometimes i just want to escape from reality, but the truth is that i know i can't...

Monday, March 30, 2009

You remind me of a few of my famous friends.

I actually had a pretty good day, woke up pretty tired but it ended up that i wasn't tired. Got ready, went to school. Laughed all day, and a LOT in art. I don't know why a lady decorating eggs is so funny but me and Sarah found it hilarious. Then my teacher was yelling out all these like "Holy moly!" and stuff like that so i decided to just yell out something random and it comes out "Holy Triangles!!!!" It was actually really funny. Then after school i got my nails done and got new mascara. I get happy too easy.

But it keeps snowing, i hate the snow. Let alone cold. I like rain and sunshine. The two best types of weather in the world. Anyways i was bummed cause it was snowing but then i figured out that Mark Hoppus is doing a song with Panic for their new CD. I was excited, and i found out they are done with their demos so the CD should be done soon...hopefully. haha.

Im going to Alice in Wonderland the play next friday, its go
ing to be fun. Im obsessed with Alice in Wonderland lately, and i don't know why. I watch it like every week. Weird...BUT Tim Burton (i hope you know who that is. If you don't im disappointed haha.) is making a Alice in Wonderland and Johnny Depp is going to be the mad hatter. It should be a REALLY good movie, im going to be first to see it haha. Anyways im going shopping after school tomorrow, i need new clothes. Woop. Okay i need some sleep, i got like 5 hours of sleep last night, im smart. ha. 

P.S Do you guys like my random drawing? hahaha. (Sorry the lighting is bad)

Pss My hair looked really good today:

Friday, March 27, 2009

Do you remember when we were friends all the way back then?

Two days in a row i get called Scene. Why did everyone call me scene? I have no idea. Just because i wore a scarf yesterday doesn't mean Im scene. So do i have multi colored hair? No, its blonde. Do i tease it and puff it HUGE? No, just because i have natural curly hair doesn't mean i puff it out, and most of the time i have it straight. Sorry for the Rant.

Yesterday we didn't have to go to school till 10. It was nice, i watched Elmo's world before school ha. Yep thats how cool i am. And i was going to go to The Haunting of Connecticut tonight but my mom said no, and my friend got pissed at me. Whatever. Im so over all the stupid drama its no even funny. It seems i can only trust like 3 people in my life. The other people who i can't trust are just kinda there, it doesn't mean i don't care about them. I do. Its just i have trust issues cause of curtain things happen...

Going to workout tomorrow morning, im excited. I don't feel like im active enough even though i do dance like 5 times a week. So i think before school im going to go workout. It sounds pretty good too me. Also i still don't have a date to formal. Oh well I'll live. Im going with Sarah. (My bestie). Were going to have lots of fun. And during the slow dance we can go to the bathroom or something. Its not even a big deal. 

Im tired, i woke up at 7:07 this morning with 10 minutes to get ready. I didn't look too bad today, i actually got quite a few compliments. Oh and did i mention it snowed again? Yeah, after we had the HUGE blizzard we get one day of sunshine which was freezing and another blizzard but wasn't too bad. No snow day, just going in late. Which is fine with me. 9 weeks of school left, and im done there. New school! With more people i can meet. I love meeting new people its always so fun. But then i can try and avoid drama next year if i pick the right friends. 
Thats all i got for today, im running out of things to say. Cool Kaitlyn. 

"Maybe someday I'll find someone who actually treats me right"

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

I wouldn't be caught dead in this place.

I don't really have much to say today. Just that we had a snowday yesterday, and we didn't really need one. Pointless. But i did enjoy extra sleep, yeah that was nice.

I've had a ton of homework lately and i don't know why, the teachers are just like "Oh 9 more weeks better give as much work as we can!" yeah, THANKS a lot, now i have no life besides homework and dance. Speaking of dance, i don't really talk alot about my dancing do i? Well maybe i should. I'll post a video tomorrow of one of my favorite dances we did. But i don't think we performed it as good as we could but whatever. More about that later when i post it. 

I  have nothing else to say, but right now im going to pick out my outfit for tomorrow and watch me some Live in C-town, woopwoop! haha. 

"Each time we face our fear, we gain strength, courage, and confidence in the doing." 

Monday, March 23, 2009


So much for spring eh? It was in the 60's and 70's like all week and then we get a blizzard, and of course its going to be bad. Its just my luck now and days. But we got out of school at 12, so its a-okay with me. I got to miss half of Social Studies a hour of PE and Wood shop. Woohoo. Tommorrow; please be a snow day, i need sleep. And i need more time for my speech, which we picked numbers today and i got number 24 which is last. Now i have a week and a half to get ready for it. Success! Oh and by the way it snowed like a foot in 4 hours. And i can only imagine what its like now.....Im scared to go outside. Last time i was out there the snow was up to my knees and Im not that short im like 5'5 or 5'6 somewhere around there. And it was at my knees.
Wow, how lucky am i to get all of this snow while everyone else is enjoying the nice weather? haha. Just grand.


Sunday, March 22, 2009

Send for all your absent lovers things.

I've been doing homework sense 4:30 and its 10:18 with no break. I hate school. Oh and not to mention were picking the order of speeches tomorrow during english, and i hope im not first. I will die. I know for a fact that i can't do it in front of the class, i always feel stupid, dumb, and hated when i present stuff. There's no use of it.

I have no energy anymore, i feel like i can collapse at any minute. Oh well, maybe its because i don't get enough sleep, i need to work on that one. 

However, last night was pretty fun, i ran around outside till midnight doing nothing with my best friend. We had fun. Fun night never fail with her, shes the only one i can really talk to. 

Thats all i have for now. Well besides the fact that i need sleep but i have to work on english for another 5 hours. Joy. Oh that and i want to do something with my life. I better start thinking about that one. uhm...

Oh and that picture is a Wyoming sunset, probably the only think i like about it here that and the mountains. 

EDIT: Oh yeah does anyone have a Twitter? If you do, mine is

"Sometimes i just let the fear take the wheel and steer my life in the wrong direction" 

Thursday, March 19, 2009

So tell me, whats your story?

Wow, today has just been interesting. Everyone got a text saying "Do not go to any Walmart tonight, Gang initiation to shoot 3 women. Not sure which Walmart, but his has been confirmed on tv." Which at the time scared the living hell out of me. Later on the news they told us it was fake and not to worry about anything, after the news told us that it was real and to stay in our housed. Jeeze.

Lunch was pretty fun today, Me and Michela were giving Sarah a hard time cause she bought a lunch just for the fruit cup haha, we never have serious conversations, its grand. [: 
Ended up i didn't take a walk today, i was too scared to go outside haha. But then i relized that we don't have any "Gangsters" in Wyoming (i HATE it here, moving as soon as i can.) and if there are, it would be kinda funny. 

Movie night tomorrow, with on of the Best Friends. Excited, are there any good movies out on DVD? uhm...i guess i should just start thinking about that. Oh yes! And i got very far on working on my speech today. But i was totally thinking that like i can't get up in front of 20 kids and talk for ten minutes without stopping. Yeah, i can't do it. I'll get really nervous and start stuttering, which isn't a very good thing. And when i read my essays or whatever i always say "Uhm...." every 5 words, yeah presenting not my thing.

I need sleep, but i feel like i can't sleep. It sucks. I can never get enough sleep anymore, but yeah i know im jumping subjects really fast today but the tv show Secret Life Of A American Teenager is kinda happening at my school, but she didn't get pregnant at band camp. Its so sad, but im glad shes keeping it. Abortion isn't a very good thing to do, but thats just my opinion.

Okay i really need to go to sleep. Im going to attempt to so i can actually wake up and curl my hair cause i haven't done that in a while...

"I can't help it if i wanna kiss you in the rain, so.."


Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Ohh, man.

Took a three mile walk today, it was pretty fun. But it was freaking cold. Good thing i live in Wyoming eh? Ha i hate it here. Its always cold and stuff. But it can get pretty. The pictures above: 1. One of the roads i was walking on, i thought it looked kinda cool. 2. The mountains, i live like super close to them. 3. My dog, Scooter. I wish i had my real camera, my phone kinda takes shity pictures. Maybe next time I'll bring it, cause there was this one spot where it would be like a amazing picture. I'll go back tomorrow and take one.

Im making a Yellow Submarine out of clay, which i wanna make it look like the submarine from the movie "The Yellow Submarine" with the beatles, has anyone seen it? If you haven't go see it!! I might of mentioned that on another blog, but i don't feel like going through it all to see if I've said to go rent the yellow submarine. 

Im running out of things to say now and days, once again i have a boring life. Its better than going out and drinking every weekend and having sex. People these days. 
Summer better come fast, or ill die. (Not really). But we only have 10 and a half weeks of school left. Woohoo! You don't know how excited i am haha.

I have nothing else to say. When i think of something, ill be sure to write it down. ha. 

Monday, March 16, 2009

Im leaving on a jet plane, don't know when ill be back again..

Yeah this is one of the old pictures of me from the begging of the year, i used to cover my eye up with my bangs, but i like this picture. Me and Kelsey in Math.

I thought today was never going to end! It was probably the longest day of my life. I only got like 2 or 3 hours of sleep last night so i was super super tired. I've been like slacking off the past couple days, but i think everyone has. Spring Break was nice while it lasted, but it was our last real break for 11 weeks. Then its summer! Woohoo! Im so excited to go to a bigger school with more people, and i can meet tons of new people. I love meeting people, it makes my day. Even if were not like real good friends and we just say "Hey, whats up?" in the hallways or on myspace or whatever im fine with that ha.

I finished my Claymation today in art, and i feel like i need to share it haha, so here it is.

I don't think i like it but whatever. I think its stupid and worthless. But at least i get a grade on it. It was real hard to do, like the ball floating and all. But now i have to do another one cause my art teacher was being stupid, blahhhh. So im going to do like a yellow submarine type thing like the movie with the Beatles in it called the Yellow Submarine. Have you seen it? If you haven't i recommend you see it, i love that movie. I would say its rather cute. [:

But it amazes me how slutty girls have gotten over the years. All i heard today was "Oh yeah i had sex with so and so 5 times this break." From like 7 girls! Wow, kinda whoreish... Its kinda sad in a way that thats all they do now and days are drink and have sex. But not me, im cool and hang out at the mall, go bowling, go to peoples houses, and stay home. Drinking? Not my thing. It just leads to worse things. But i guess you can do whatever you please. Just don't bring me in your little drinking drama. ha.

Oh yes and another video oh some of the guys in my PE class, that really wasn't there song we were just looking up songs for our dance and we recorded this and jessie sticks her head in once in a while haha, ENJOY! its actually really funny.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Wake me up, i can't wake up.

I received my Pink Ball from SocialVibe not too long ago and decided to take a picture with it. Kind of a bad picture, but whatever. And for everyone who doesn't know what SocialVibe is its a website where you can join a Cause and get sponsored without even having to pay a dime. Whenever you log on and update your status and stuff like that you earn points and when you earn points you make money for that cause. And when you get to a certin amount of points you can get a pink ball. I like it a lot. Right now i am supporting To Write Love On Her Arms. and raised about 41,902 dollars already just for that cause. And when you get to 100% you move on to a different one. I like it alot. 

Anyways I redid my Blog, i don't think i like it but whatever. Do you guys like it? ha. I got extremely bored and tired of my old one, so i decided it was time for a change. Change is good sometimes...uhm. Well Good change is good..

I kinda feel like i have nothing to talk about anymore. Everything is just the same, i wake up, go to school (Well not this week or last week? whatever ha), and deal with the stupid drama. ha. I need to be more exciting but i did make some promises to myself because im not following my new years resolution uhm...haha. But my promises are:

-From now on im going to live my life 'cause who knows, i may never see tomorrow.
-Im going to smile no matter what happens.
-My life isn't going to stop for one little bump in the road, im going to keep going and just see what happens.
-I will learn how to play guitar this year.
-I have goals, i WILL achieve them, and no one can stop me.
-I am going to do the impossible, cause guess what? Nothing is impossible. 

So my Artist list of what i have been listening too contains: Panic at the Disco, Phantom Planet, Cute is What We Aim For, Boys Like Girls, The Cab, Fall Out Boy, and Evanesance. The only artist i have been listening too lately. Its kinda weird. But i like it so its a-okay with me. Ha wow, im a total nerd, but thats alright i have to live with it. ha.

Also does anyone have a clue what "PPP" might mean? I have been pondering that all day and i still am, so if anyone knows just like tell me ha. But i don't think anyone knows but a certin four people. Gahh. Its 3:18 in the morning, i need sleep. Shopping tomorrow. Pretty excited. Woohoo for me! ha.

Also this:

"Forget the risk, take the fall. If its what you want, its worth it all."

Thursday, March 12, 2009


Today went by extremely fast, i don't want it too though. Spring Break is going by too fast, i just realized that i haven't even done that much. I guess my life is just really boring. Everyone is like "Oh yeah tomorrow? Party, party, PARTY!!" i don't really care about drinking or smoking, who does it benefit? Yeah you get drunk and you have fun but your not really smart when your drunk and you wake up with a major hangover the next day. Can't you just wait like 6 years to drink legally? Plus you do stupid stuff that you usually don't remember and you can't go back and change it and everyone is like "I really shouldn't of done that, ughh i hate my life! Im living in hell!!" Well its your fault for drinking, not mine thanks. [:

Anywhoooo i need summer to come fast. Im going to California for like two weeks, woohoo! I can get out of this town for just a little bit! I really want to go to Monterey so i can go to the Monterey Bay Aquarium. I heard its the biggest in the United States. Yeah i know, people usally only little kids enjoy Aquariums and Zoos but i like them a lot. More Aquariums then Zoos cause i wanna be a Marnie Bioligest haha. 

Not looking forward to tomorrow, don't wanna go swimming or see anyone just wanna stay in bed! Blah. I guess im lazy too. ha. Once again i guess my life is extremely boring. Nothing really exciting happens, like Zak was all "What was the most exciting thing that happened to you this year?" And i ended up saying "Well...i really don't know, i guess nothing." And then it clicked, i have a boring life. The most exciting thing that happened to me was the Panic concert i went to in October, and Meeting Plain White Ts... Yeah i don't like to go drink, sneak out, get in fights and such. Id rather stay home, have friends over and just have fun knowing that we don't need beer to have fun, listen to music and dance around my room, ATTEMT to play my guitar, having long conversations on the phone, and color. The simple things in life is what makes me happy.

Wow, most of this blog was about how boring my life is. Sorry about that. Maybe i should start talking about random worthless things like....How this random guy on myspace won't leave me alone hahahaha. I even blocked him....

Oh!! I was just on Myspace and on the ADs it was like Criss Angel Quiz? Take it! and under it was like Panic at the Disco! Take the quiz now! How ironic?...Criss Angel..PATD. Wierd...Okay i need sleep, and i need to think about some things...

But for now Random song time!!

Five Minutes Till Midnight- Boys like Girls
Newport Living- Cute is what We Aim For
The Tide- The Spill Canvas
Everything is Alright- Motion City Soundtrack
California- Metro Station


Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Spin it round, spin it round.

LONG two days, moving all my stuff back in my room takes forever, and now i have all this crap laying on my floor cause i don't know what to do with it. My dance trophies and medals go on shelves along with my sea shells but guess what? No shelves yet, my mom wont take me to get some but whatever.Brooke and Amy are coming Friday i hope that will be fun. I was looking at some pictures on Global Warming and it like scares me to death. Ahh. Also i was doing research on Animal Testing for my speech (I think thats a good topic to talk about for like 10 minutes right?) and its so sad, i almost start crying. And i read about how the Government uses animal testing on dogs. Crazy right? I think its wrong. They spend more money on animal testing then they do curing illnesses. Blahblahblah.

Anyhoe I need to get ready, going to Adriana's house. Shes one of my few best friend that haven't just dumped me on the side of the road (hint HINT) ;] hahahahaha, wow im over that. Like if she doesn't have enough courage to come to me and talk to my face why should i try to talk to her? 

And I've been looking at my formal dress and just relized that i was supposed to be in her group, so now i don't know what im going to do. Something will turn out. Uhm...

Introducing Phoebe: 

She always makes my day, she comes in my room every night lays at my feet and starts purring. Shes so sweet, well until she comes up and starts biting everything she sees. Uhm...

P.s Im like obsessed with the song The Forth Drink Instinct by Cute is What We Aim for. mmhmm, :]

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Go ahead and burn it down.

Pretty good Spring Break so far...well kinda. Friday went to Zacks house with Taylor, Sarah, and Zak. Sat in the hot tub for like 3 hours,i don't think thats good for you... Saturday went to Zacks house once again with Zak and Taylor and when we were in Zacks room his mom came in and started crying, and we were all whats wrong? And she was all, well you know Chris? Well he just killed himself.... Everyone started crying. That was the second teen suicide in 2009. Wow....

It was pretty emotional, so we decided to go bowling. Everyones scores were in the 100s and my score? Yeah it was 26. I suck at bowling. Thats no surprise though, I've always sucked. 

My room is almost done, just have to paint some spots black that we missed and vaccume, and i think clean my floor. Im just excited to get it done, im tired of just sleeping on a mattress. Now i can hang up all my stuff that i got, once again im excited ha. 

Depressing week...I hope it gets better. But the good thing is that the guy i like moved in next door. ;] Mmhmm haha. Wow, im lame. 

Im bored, so if anyone wants to talk


"Its just a lyrical lie made up in my mind."