Thursday, April 30, 2009


Today has been horrible. Probably one of the worst day's ever. Im done with everything, everyone. 
Im not going to say "Im so sick of this town and the people in it." The truth is, its not going to get any better. I hate saying that but its true. Maybe it is the people in it, maybe its just me. I feel like i can't do anything right anymore. I always seem to screw up somehow. This weekend is supposed  to be fun, but with all of this going on its going to be a living hell. 
Sometimes i just feel like i want to run and never look back. That sounds pretty good to me right now. Im trying not to give up, but its so hard. I need to think, just sit down and stop. And just think. 

"No matter how bitter this gets between all of this, just remember they're still our friends, and this is still our home."

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Stop making plans, start making sense.

This is my car. A '61 Chevey Biscayne. My first car. Im super excited, but i don't get it until November or December. But i can't drive 'till December. 8 more months. haha. We just have to put a down payment (i guess thats what its called.) and its mine. Which i am doing after school tomorrow. 

Anyways other than my car Im freaking out about formal. I really shouldn't be but i am. My dress still hasn't came back in again after a month, i don't have shoes, if my dress doesn't come by Thursday i have to get another one here in town which really sucks. And i don't know how to tell someone that i don't wanna be in her group for formal. Its just so hard. No fun at all.

Last night was super fun, i went to this thing called the 'Sweet water' it was hilarious. But it started to snow as usual. And it ruined my life haha. Kidding. But i hate snow, stupid Wyoming. It sucks here, never come. Seriously. But then when me and Adri woke up at like 5 in the morning at her sisters house the light in the next room was on and her pillow was gone and we were the only one's home. It was freaky. But really funny. 

Okay im running out of things to say. 

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Go on.

Sorry, i said i promised i would post like yesterday i think? But i kinda forgot...Sorry 'bout that one kids. 

Well i found a car that i want, and we just have to put some money on it next week and its mine. Its a '61 Chevey Biscayne (I think thats how you spell it..) Well its light blue with blue seats and stuff, its real cute. haha. Even though i can't really drive 'till December my mom still wants too get it for me. Im helping pay for some of it, but only 1,000. 'Cause thats all i have saved up for a car..I'll post a picture when i see it next. I wont get it for a while though, its getting fixed.

Yesterday i went to the mall to find a pair of shoes for formal, i had some luck but didn't get any yet. 'Cause my dress hasn't came back in yet, we sent it in too get a smaller size and it sill hasn't came so if it doesn't come by Thursday i have to get another dress. Great. Thats all i need right now, im so stressed out. About everything. I need to just stop for a second and tell myself that everything is going to be alright. But formal is next saturday. thats just granddd.

I miss the Bahamas, how it was sooo warm. I went there for a week last year, i wanna go back! Im tired of the cold, it snowed again last night. It was like in the 80's then went down to 40 and snowy. Bummer, but it should melt today hopefully. So heres a picture that i took when i was on a boat, just to remind myself how wonderful that week was hahaha. 

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Detox just to Retox..

Wow, i haven't posted for a while. Sorry. I've been busy but not busy at the same time. I know, it makes no sense. But either do i so yeahh. And i've been stressed out about everything. Formal is next weekend and the damn place wont give me my dress back. You see, i needed to get it fixed cause it was too big and we sent it in about a month ago and they said "It will be back in two weeks." But its been a month. And im confused about groups so im just going to go with my best friend. Its going to funner that way. Sense the group i was supposed to go with failed to give me any info about that night im out of the group. Cool..

We got a new girl in school today, i forgot her name. I feel bad that i did, but i forget things all the time so whats new? But i can tell you what is new, i found a car. Its a '61 Chevy Biscayne. The guy who is selling it too us is fixing it up, putting new parts to it, and putting new seats and stuff in it. Im excited. Even though i won't be able to drive till December. But thats okay haha.

I don't have much to say today, i just have a lot going through my head right now. I have to think. But i don't know what's the right thing to do or whats the wrong. This is hard.
More tomorrow, i promise. 

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Today is the day..

Starting today im going to start living my life. Starting today im not going to let anyone get to me. Starting today im going to not let fear get in the way of anything. Starting today im going to do things for me and trying not to make everyone in my life happy. Starting today im going to live with no regrets.

I've let people walk all over me for too long. Take advantage of me. Im stopping that today. Im going to speak my mind and what i think. I don't care if it pleases anybody as long as i feel good about myself then Im happy. Im not trying to be selfish, i just haven't done anything good for myself and i just try to make everyone else happy and seemed that i forgot about myself. 

This is my promise to myself. Im not going to break it. This is something that will happen everyday for the rest of my life...

Monday, April 13, 2009

This is interesting...

What should i think of this? Ha.

P.s (i changed my name haha.)

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Imagine THAT.

I haven't posted in a while. I just can't figure out what to say anymore. I live a boring life ha. Just tons of drama lately. Its stupid. Summer can't come fast enough. Well besides the fact that in July my Grandma who HATES me (like seriously she loves my brother but hates the living guts out of me, don't ask why. I have no idea) is coming down with my Grandpa. Which im not looking forward too. For like a week then we have to go to South Dakota with them. So i can only go to the fair for like two days then miss the rest. COOL. But i did get a A on my speech. I was so nervous to present it. But obviously i said "Um" too much. But oh well. I felt like a idiot after i was done. 

Anyways this weekend sucked. Well i guess Friday was pretty good. Played RockBand all night. It was grand. I tried to sing "The Middle" by Jimmy Eat World. It worked out mighty fine...i think. ha. Meagan did better than i did. She sung "Beat It." it was funny ha. We woke up her parents like 5 times. But i guess when you rock out you can't really contain yourself. haha. 

Oh yeah btw; HAPPY EASTER! woopp. My easter was pretty swell. The "Easter Bunny" got me 5 books (yeahh i know, imma nerd. I read.), tons of candy, and a new cell phone (that i will get later this week.). haha. How was everyones easter? and did the easter bunny bring you anything? lol.

P.s Happy Birthday Brendon!!! :D It seems you had a nifty birthday today. 

P.p.s My new favorite words are: Nifty, swell, yonder, grand. 

EDIT: I changed the name of my blog, do you like this name or the other onee?

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Take a chance.

I've been super busy the past couple of days. I have no life anymore. Between trying to finish my Speech (not even CLOSE to being done with, reading my outside book (but i read alot so its not that bad), and trying to get enough exercise cause with dance apparently im not. Even know i dance my butt of every day wow. That is the reason im not posting as much as i used too. So sorry. But i did go and see Adventureland. I thought it was cheesy. I didn't like it. I mean there was some funny parts but other than that i didn't like it...

I need sleep i don't get enough anymore, but i only have 6 weeks of school left so its okay! haha. 6 more weeks and drama is all done. Im so tired of girls. I would rather hang out with guys, which is actually really fun. They don't worry about what people think of them or who's dating who. Its great haha. 

Im really liking the White Tie Affair lately. There pretty good. At first i hated them but now im starting to like them a lot. I guess thats what happened with my favorite band now... haha. Speaking of music, i've been listening to The Beatles all day. Who can't beat the oldies eh? Ahh the classics. There amazing. [:

Thats all i got for now...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Im not complaining that its raining.

This week has just been crazy. By crazy i mean; Drama filled. It seems that it never stops, that people do it for enjoyment or just to watch the other person fall and fail. Then laugh about it. Im tired of it all; all the crap talking, all the mocking, all the making fun of everyone, EVERYTHING! 

Everyone just needs to look in the mirror and say "What am i doing? Am i really happy of what i've become?" Im not sure if that made sense but it did to me. I just wish everyone would actually find out who they really are and what it feels like to be made fun of or get mocked. And i know for a fact that High School is worse than Junior High was. In junior high it was "Oh you have the same shirt as me i wanna beat you up!" and now its on for about anything and everything. Thats all im going to say with this rant, i can go on and on but i don't want to.

Anyways formal is in exactly one month...Still no date. I think me and Sarah decided we were just going to go together instead of dates. Its going to be more fun. Also i don't have to slow dance, thank god. In other news my science teacher hit me with a marshmallow today. Through a marshmallow gun, it made a bruise. It doesn't sound like it was too bad but you could hear it from all the way across the room, it hurt. Im super tired, i need sleep. But i also need to work on my speech, but i have a week to do that so i'll do it this weekend or something. But not wait till last minute, i've done that its no fun. Thats all i have for now...

Sometimes i just want to escape from reality, but the truth is that i know i can't...